why?

why?

why do i feel this way?

why am i not happy for you?

i know i should be...

but i guess i just have a lot of things going on my mind.

so many other things to think about,

rather than to be happy for you.

i know this is wrong.

i was shocked! you caught me offguard.

i really don't have anything against it

and i certainly don't have feelings for that person

maybe, just maybe

i'm just expecting something else.

that your journey will take a while

before you get to a conclusion

before you can even say that "this is it."

it's not my ideal relationship

but that is your life.

i'm just a friend.

your sister who cares for you.

i know i just have to let this through and clear my mind.

i'm sorry if i can't concentrate on you right now.

i just have to think of something else going on around me...

don't worry. there will come a time....

when i can focus on you and that 'someone' you're with

and be happy for you...

...i will...

i guess this pretty much says how i've felt when i heard the news...

relationships are vital....it's the most important thing.

and we need to be prepared when we go into something farther than just being friends...and more than that...